MIDDLE [age] DAD pt 0

What Are We Thinking?

The plan was for me to go to school full time while Brenda worked.  I would get a teaching degree and then we would start having kids.  That was 18 years ago. Four months after we were married, we learned that birth control is not always effective.  Two and a half years after that, we found out that 2 forms of birth control will not stop pregnancy if God wants you pregnant.

Two boys, 3 years of marriage and no teaching degree.  But if we would have waited, then we would never have had kids.  Brenda has has 5 or 6 miscarriages since our youngest was born.  We both wanted one more, a girl preferably.  When it became clear that Bren could not maintain a viable pregnancy, we thought naturally about adoption.

But time and money never seemed to line up.  Today, at age 42, we picked up papers to begin the adoption process.

And I'm freaking out...

(...to be continued...)